Just another hurdle

I phoned my Mom today. It was the first time that we had spoken since May 28th. We talked about me and how happy I was to get her letter, and I went into a little more detail on how I am doing. She was glad that I called as she thought that I had been excluding her from our lives, but I told her it was because of the way I am. It was a great phone call and it must have lasted at least 15 minutes. I promised her that I would stay in touch with her more often.

My next big test is coming up on December 12th. The company is sending me to Burlington for a week on course. I'm a little worried as it will be my first time away from home by myself. I won't have the comforting words of encouragement from my spouse to get me through the day. I will also have to completely rely on my own judgement as far as my look is concerned. I guess I'm a little excited as well. The class is very small with about 8 other people attending all females except for one male. I'm sure that I'll do OK, it's just another hurdle that I'll have to get over.

I accept you the way you are.

A while back I sent a letter to my mom, coming out to her, you can read that topic here:

http://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,1371.0.html

Today I received her reply, and I'll post it here as to me it is so wonderful.


My Dear Steph

This has to be the biggest surprize of my life, something I didn't expect in a million years, but you are my child nothing can change that, there is no choice, I accept you the way you are.

Your Dad and I agree you have tremendous ammount of courage to commit this change after fifty three years, and I must admit I find it difficult to imagine you as a female, if you could send me photographs it would help.

I have told G------, J----, and W----- and they accept it, also B---- & M-----. Both W----- & M------ said the same thing that you are their cousin no matter what. This is only a short letter, but i think that I have kept you waiting long enough.

Remember I will always love you.

Mom and Dad